It's Friday and pizza is on it's way :o go pizza go!
Today was fun so far...ran through the mud and snow in waveny with Alexandra and drove around with her and talked more after getting a coffee fix
About to eat dinner (HOPEFULLY) and also will soon be picked by who? ALEXANDRA...yes we hate to be separated for more than half a day...we're supposedly gonna go to starbucks then just hang out
Going out to eat with the girls...watching Alfie at Caroline's (which was pretty good, but sad)...driving around with Alexandra and talking for over an hour...WOOOHOO TONIGHT WAS GREAT!! :D
Nothing to really report cept that this room is really hot and this computer has alot of glare and I'm listening to music when I sould be doing my story for this class...but eh...I'm pretty much done with it so meh. I wrote my story about when I was little and I locked myself in the closet in the middle of the night. Good times, good times.
After today we have a three day weekend WOOHOO! I need this vacation so badly even though we just had a week long vacation and I took off Monday...er...yeah
Supposedly we girls are gonna go out for dinner then watch a movie at Caroline's. Hopefully that'll work out..it'll be the first week in awhile that we've been able to do something *growls at the people that actually have lives and are usually busy*
Soooo that's about it...I'm gonna go back to not doing what I'm supposed to be doing right now, wish me luck! :D
Well...just got back from my run, took a shower, ate an apple and am drinkin le H2O
I feel alot better from this morning (kept tearing up in classes and during my frees cause I had nothing to distract me). The day was pretty normal, Alexandra told me all about this kid in her orchestra group, he sounds like one really interesting, outgoing, hyperactive guy O_O and I just realized she said his name was Alex...Alex and Alex hhaahahahah...eh it sounded funnier in my head
My run today was okay. It was a REALLY nice day out, sunny and warm. I was extra tired today for some reason and actually...am really tired right now too. And yes I have become somewhat "entry happy" lately...ccaauusseee I have no life WOOHOO
I'm in school right now...in the computer lab for World Lit.
I'm so bored and still really sad >< grr I hate when you're sad and you don't know why...when you're sad and there's nothing you can do about it. Oh well, hopefully it'll blow over and I'll be back to my semi-happy self soon enough. Being back to school actually kinda helps but I miss my comfy bed and comfy chair and being able to run downstairs to pet Petey whenever I want.
I plan on running right after school then relax once I get home. If that all goes smoothly I should be a LITTLE better atleast. Ohhhhh holy crap! I have my Philosophy test tomorrow..NNOOOO!!!
Bleh, well I should go, doubt Ms. Sorenson would care if I was on here but I have nothing else to report...
Soooo...here I am again...sitting here bitching and groaning and self pitying and crying and smacking myself in the face for doing it. Here I am again...spilling out my emotions onto a screen like it makes a difference, like me getting my feelings down and me insulting myself over and over again will make any difference...I know it won't...so why am I doing it? Cause I, people that are reading this and obviously have nothing better to do, am an idiot...YES! I am an idiot. That's a lie you say? That's just me be self pitying and being a menstrual biatch? NNNNOPE it's the truth. Over the very uninteresting 18 years of my life I have come to realize I, Annie (insert middle and last name here), am an idiot. I complain about things and don't do them. I give myself hope when I know hope shouldn't be given...
I...am...an...idiot
Sitting here listening to depressing music and TRYING to think of the bad aspects of my life and who I'd rather be than me is stupid, IDIOTIC in fact. But, I still do it. And I know I'll do it till the day I die...maybe not every day mind you but I WILL do it again and I'll kick myself for doing it again. I now know why bands make sad, depressing songs...they do it for self pitying teenage girls n boys who can't get off their ass and try to fix the "deep/dark/stupid/idiotic/meaningless" problems that makes them so "depressed".
It's funny and really quite pathetic. I've been REALLY jealous of one or two people for a good few months now. I know one of them and I don't even know the other. Yet I sat here and I read the other's (the person I don't know) journal. I read pretty much every single entry...I read the comments...I look at all of their comments and every time I read a new entry or comment I kept thinking "I'll never be as cool as them...I'll never have that many friends...I'll never hang out and have as much fun as them" I was sitting there wishing I was this person...WHY?! Cause they have more friends than me? Cause they're smarter or cooler or nicer or prettier or healthier or funner than me? I don't know anymore...all I know is that right now I'm wasting time self pitying and bitching and I hate it...but will I get up and go do something about it?..probably not
Today was a pretty good day. School was majorily easy. I only had three classes and I had a free first period (aka Creative Writing)and two frees last :P I got to meet with Ms. Sorenson (English teacher) about my story...she's a real ego booster haha I love her :D
Then after school I went with Alexandra to the YMCA to work out...I did some treadmill, some elliptical and some stationary bike. It was fun but I like running outside more...but doing it once a week would be fun. Each treadmill has it's own tv and you can watch whatever you want so I watched My Uncle Vinney er I think that's what it's called...while I ran. It was cool and distracting but I still like outside better :P
Turns out Christine was able to get tickets to a play she wanted to see tomorrow so we're not gonna go to NYC till next saturday :( oh well...at least we're still gonna go :) hope we DO go...we better!
Whoa...we actually had a snow day! I can't believe it O_O The roads are clear and fine at the moment but supposedly it was snowing really hard when I was still asleep (I woke up at around 11:30...yyeeaahhh)
For some reason I'm REALLY craving a bagel and cream cheese right now...probably cause I just found a writing community on here called blueberrybagel x_x
Nothing to really report today...I'm up to 42,000 words on my novel/story thingy so yay! It looks really pretty outside, all the trees are coated in snow as is the front lawn. I know I'm not gonna be doing anything today cause well, I never do anything on snow days :D
So yeah, that's it for now. I hope I get to run tomorrow >
Hmm...doing nothing at the moment but sitting in meh comfy chair and watching the movie The Haunting...
I remember watching this movie in the theatres with my friend Jen in like 6th grade. Wow, that was a looonnggg time ago O_O I remember we were so afraid, we curled up in our seats, hugging our legs to our chests and holding hands. Yeah, I was even more of a wimp then than I am now...which wow, is quite a big wimp :P
Today is Sunday...which basically translates to "Annie does absolutely nothing" day. Let the laziness begin...GO!
Let's sseeee...it's Saturday and I've really done nothing today (unless waking up, running, showering and watching horrible tv is something)
Thanks Bufflie (hope I spelled that right) soooooo much for helping me re-do my livejournal! I LOVE LOVE LOVE it! :D The picture on the side really makes me wanna go running...it looks like the roads in Vermont when I go to Norrie camp...soooo purdy
Not really sure why I'm writing in here now. I mean, I haven't done anything today and I'm not doing anything at the moment. Just bored I spose. I joined a few more writing communities on livejournal and I'm almost done with the first book in The Dark Towers series by Stephen King...it's really good, semi-confusing and switches from past to present alot but it really is good. I'd recommend it :)
Welp, that's about it for now...I'm gonna go back to chatting online and watching horrible tv
Wow...I haven't written in here in like FOREVER...I've been using xanga than I stopped that a lil while ago now I'm back to this but not sure if I'm completely back to it and this is turning into one really long run on sentence but I'm way to lazy to stop it and try to punctuate properly because I'm just THAT lazy and it snowed yesterday how about that? Phew...
I was reading all these old entries a few weeks ago and wow...I'm one REALLY pathetic lil girl :P I was "madly in love" with some guy at my school that moved away this summer. And I used to put lil quotes of things I thought were "deep" and "meaningful" but come on Annie..you compared a person's soul to A FOOT!
But I still can't believe I've been posting on here for what is it now? A year...over a year...under a year...I have no concept of time whatsoever x_x ANYWAY! I really need to get a new look on this thing if I'm going to continue posting on this. I'm also gonna wanna keep the same font color on each entry from now on but it's gonna bug me at first because I'm obsessive compulsive like that >
Wow...haven't written in THIS online journal in a while. Today was homecoming...blue and white face paint, purple fishnet stockings, the works. Pep rally is in about 30 mins or so then comes practice, then shower then dinner then free time then sleep. I forgot how annoying it feels to be tired...how any little thing can set you off.
The library is almost empty now and I was hanging out with Alexandra and Caroline today and realized...I'm pretty much just a glomer...not a word...or well I don't think it is but I just glom onto people. The only really good friend I have in Cristina...then I just kinda follow around Alex and her friends. Whenever I'm with them I feel like a pest...they talk about what they're gonna do together after school and I just sit there, staring off into space pretending either not to listen or busy staring away...
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